Quiet time, anyone?

For the past couple of weeks, I have been taking a practice MCAT every Sunday morning.  I realize that after every Sunday morning, I feel the same sense of rage.  I was going to make a note to myself to write about this, and when I came here to write this post I realized that I had made the SAME EXACT NOTE last week.



Obviously, if someone is taking a practice test, writing a paper, computer programming, or maybe even just reading a book, it is preferable for the environment to be mostly quiet.  However, this is f*cking impossible at my house.

I am so angry, I am about to have a panic attack.  F*ck.

DESPAIR!

I'm the kind of person who enjoys quiet.  Even though I hate being alone, I love the quiet air when everyone else in the house is either gone or asleep.  I love that feeling.  It is so clean, tranquil, and beautiful.  I can do whatever I want.  I can study efficiently when no one is at home because that's the ONLY time that there is no noise.

Today, I happened to make the mistake of sleeping through my alarm and waking up at 8:30 instead of 7:30 AM.  Whoopsie.  So that meant less quiet time to myself.  I'm trying to power through this test, and everything goes fine until people start waking up.  Because when normal people are awake, they talk, laugh, make loud noises, etc.  And then I get increasingly angrier, which means that my score decreases rapidly.

And for some reason, which is beyond me, people think it's okay to interrupt me while im' trying to take this test.  I mean, sure, some interruptions are necessary ... but some are absolutely unnecessary and are just distracting.  For example, asking me for my rent check while I'm taking this test is stupid.  Yes, I understand you're going shopping now but guess what: you have a car.  And that means you can go to the bank whenever you want, even later today.

(Sidestory:  I had to pause the test and check my account.  The money that my mom had deposited hadn't gone through yet ... so I was f*cked until my glorious roommate covered rent for me.  THANK YOU, KITTY-KITTY-MANGO-THONG.)

Now, I'm agitated.  And stressed because I'm running out of time.  I'm sure that my performance is decreasing exponentially.  I just wanted some quiet.  Is that such a ridiculous request?

Then a laptop starts emitting music, larynxes start emitting sound, and the blender emits more air pollution.  Yes, the blender.

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And this doesn't just happen on MCAT days.  This happens constantly.  I am always wishing for quiet.  Sometimes, I'm quietly studying and then people make noise, so I put in my headphones.  That should be a signal that I want the quiet back, right?  Well, apparently not ... so then I have to leave and go into my room.   I get up, take my stuff, and slam the door as loud as I can.  Did you get the message now?  This doesn't help much because it's on the first floor and the door does not seal.  I can hear basically everything that goes on outside my room (which is great because my room is right next to the kitchen and the dining room).

It is NOT THAT HARD to be quiet, or to be considerate of someone else's needs.  And some people actually NEED quiet.  That's all I'm saying.

Haha.  Of course, when I'm long done with my test, it is dead quiet outside because everyone else decided it was study time.  F*ck this.  I suppose I will have to live in the library.